Kaitlin Blue's Journal

Life is a search all on it's own.

-i havent seen anyone since summer, almost.

Haven't written in a while.
Probably because nothing all the special has happened.
I went to a HMDB show last week or something, and that kinda sucked actually. I just didnt have too much fun. Other then that I have either been at Scotty's or here with Nate.
Not that I'm complaining about either of the two because I love spending time with both of them. :]
Oh! and, I got sunburn. real bad the other day. it was horrible. mm, I asked Allison to see about maybe getting me a job at Country Sense. which could be cute.
Other then that...
-Nate is looking for another job again. and Im really hoping he gets a good one soon.
-I'm going to Scotty's again today. He is going to let me watch the unedited version of the movie Seven. which I have yet to see.
-Hopefully my mommy stops at the library on our way to Scotty's so I can get my summer book report started.
-6 months in 5 days. :]
-Nate's daddy is comming down at the end of next week or something. So, I get to meet him for the first time. Which, I'm nervous about because it seems like Nate and his dad are pretty close.
-I'm going to finish my laundry, eat some french toast and vegetarian sausage, and take a shower then get ready to leave.

I'd really like to start hanging out with everyone more often. Whenever anyone has any plans you should talk to me, because Ill more then likely be able to go. :] <3
hopefully, this will be a good week.

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: washer shakin!

The past five days have been sort of eventful? hah

30th- Went to the hometown celebration. My mommy's boyfriend's band played. I hung out with Nate alll day. I also got to see a bunch of other cuties too! like Steve, JohnForce, Titties, Matt, Jess, Carole, DJ, and a bunch more. then i came home and hung out with Nate for a while.
1st- My mommy went with her boyfriend to Sweetwater for the day because he had a show to play. But! I stayed home with Nate the whole day.
2nd- Monday was Nate's first day of work at Goodfellows. and, since he works during the daytime I decided to find myself something to do. So, me and Scotty decided to go to the crusty mall. It was actually not that crusty. I got to see maddd people like Allison, Sam, Brittany, Dan, Paul, Mike, Shawn, Giselle, Tina, JenZ, JohnForce, Steve, Matt, and some others too! :] Then me and Scotty went back to his house and I slept thereeee.
3rd- Tuesday I stayed and chilled with Scotty at his house until like 6 and then my mommy picked me up. Not long after I got home Nate came over cause he was done work. I pretty much just hung out with him all nighttt. :]
4th- fourth of july! Yesterday we all had plans to go to OC and see the fireworks but those plans ended up not working. So, me and Nate sat home most of the day because we couldnt think of anything else to go do. While me and Nate were making dinner his aunt called and invited us to go see fireworks at the Borgota. So! that is what we did. we got picked up around 7 and I returned home around 11. We walked around the casino for a little before the fireworks started around 9ish. We sat on/in the car and watched. Afterwards, we all stopped at McDonalds cause the kids were hungrey. oh yeah! and we watched Flubber on the way home and we saw a girl hop out of her car and pee on the side of the road. haha. All in all it was a really good night and Im happy I went out and did something.
--I still have people telling me how cute and adorable they think me and Nate are. :]]] <33

As for today? Im not sure yet its still early.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: all time low

all i have to say is..
tuesday night was great.
after stressing all week about the party I finally got to have fun. Once we all got out there and it cooled down it was great. I missed everyone and it was hilarious for the most part. Wednesday was good too, except everyone was sick. haha We all came back to my house and laid around in my room until like 2.
<3 This needs to happen again, only this time with EVERYONE.

and now, Im off to scotty's. :]

Today was wonderful.
Woke up.
Shower.
Nate got here.
Drove.
Canoe-ing with Nate!
Went canoeing for 5 hours. Today was our 5 months.
Got picked up.
Drove home.
Took a nap with Nate.
Walked him to the bus stop.
He went to work.
I'm home now.
Talking with Allycakes and Britt. <3333


Didn't do anything Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday just passed.
Yesterday I went to Nate's for the first time.
We walked in Absecon for 3 hours. <3 :]

Current Mood: sunburned

so, as of right now I am sitting in my basement at my house on the computer. Scotty is upstairs sleeping and Nate is right here sleeping. haha
I am finally out of school but it definately doesn't feel like summer yet. I'm not sure why though.
Not much has happened since the beginning of the month. AT ALL.
My weekends have been pretty much the same and my weeks have been exactly the same. I'm hoping since it's summer now things might switch up a bit.
Yesterday was pretty boring but I spent it in AC with my two favorite boys so that was nice. My mommy's boyfriend had to play at the Seafood Festival and so we all took a "family outing trip". hah
It was really boring actually. We didnt do much but sit/walk around within the little designated space they had the festival in.
After the festtt me and Scotty came back to my house and chilled for a little bit. Then hit up the computer. :]
At like 10 my mommy came home and brought us a shitload of sushi and such.
I could barely eat any because it filled me right up! But, I guess that was the highlight of my day since I haven't had sushi in god knows how long.
It's amazing how long one can go on and on blabbering about the love of sushi.
hmm, Nate woke me up at 4:30 this morning calling me to tell me that he was in my driveway.
haha he ended up sleeping outside until 6 when I went and got him and brought him inside. He's been sleeping on the couch since then.
So, I'm sitting here waiting for the guys to wake up watching a movie I havent seen since I was real real little; called The Dark Crystal. :]
mhm. BUT! Nate snores like a bulldozer so...its horrible. haha

Current Mood: sleepy

I want to watch that movie.
I have spent the last two hours trying to find some place on the internet where I could watch it.
This was not successful.

Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: the shinss

:] i just finished enjoying a wonderful meatless breakfast burrito. hah
Friday I didnt do much. I stayed home from school (missing field day) and then my mommy came and picked me up. Then we picked Scotty up and came home. Me and Scotty just caught up on our time together for the rest of the evening. But!
Yesterday was quite a day. Some of us went to Atlantic City again for the day. It was me, Nate, Scotty, Tina, Johnforce, Brittany! and Antwon. I had fun. We even went swimming. heh At like, 4:30 we walked Nate to the train station so he could go to work then the rest of us just hung around until 6:30 when our train came. Me, Brittany, and Scotty parted ways with Tina, Jonhforce and Antwon in Egg Harbor City. The three of us went to Rite-Aid and finally bought my hair bleach. Then Brittany got picked up by her daddy and me and Scotty went home. We ordered a white pizza and chowed it down! :] After that, it was probably 9:30 by then, we bleached mah hair. That was a big of a lengthy process but thats alright. After my hair was done, we watched some tv then went to bed. heh
As of right now, Scotty is still sleeping and I am already dressed and ready for the day. Nate should be getting on the bus soon to come see me until he has to go to work this evening.

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: acceptance

I haven't written in almost three weeks. But, not surprisingly, not much has happened. My weeks have been pretty much the same. I am just counting down the days until school is over. ( 17 more school days. heh. The last two weekends were quite nice,but this past weekend was grand. I have spent the last two weekends devoting all my time to my darling. and I could never complain about that! This past weekend, however, I finally got to see some of the gang. I took the train up to Atlantic City with Scotty, Nate, Jess, JessJess, Johnforce, and Tegan. I'd have to say that was the best. I missed them. We hung out in AC for most of the day and then took the train home. Scotty and Natey slept at my housee. :]
Tomorrow is four months. heh, so I think I might stay home with my boy. Then this weekend is a four day weekend and so we will most definately be going and doing something fun.

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: leftover crack

i really have not had much to say lately.
it is pretty much just the same stuff.
im hoping everything will get back into swing soon.

yesterday, however, was pretty freakin' amazing.
and hopefully this weekend should be too.
hanging out with nate and jess's party on saturday.
:]

Current Music: listening to the fan spinning.

On rocks I dreamt of where we'd stepped
And of the whole mess of roads we're now on
---
YESYESYESYESYESYES! :]

<33
Today has been more wonderful then any day has been in quite a while.

Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: The Shins

Saturday was pretty good... BUT
every week is the same.
as is the weekend anymore.
i'm missing nate even more; today is our "three months".

Current Mood: restless
Current Music: Wilco

There's got to be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me.
---

Come on love run with me
Ge the hell out of this town
So we can get a better feel for each other
I'll take you, back to, when you
Remembered how you used to
Just live your life a little for me

Current Music: heh

Update on how the rest of my weekend went:
Saturday: The concert was amazing, even though I ended up sitting out for almost all of Taking Back Sunday. We got to the HOB and we met up with Dan and Devon. Turns out, they got us backstage passes and we all got to meet the boys from Taking Back Sunday so that was freaking wonderful. Armor For Sleep and Underoath played first and they were great. and I held through both of them.. but by the time TBS came on I completely freaked out. I think I've discovered I'm claustrophobic or I had an anxiety attack. Either way, two songs into TBS I darted out of the pit and found a trash can and heaved. haha then I passed down onto the floor where i continued crying and vomitted again. BOY! So I just kind of sat there next to the trash can until the concert was over and JessJess and Scotty found me. Luckily, Mark came and checked up on me every now and then. :]
Anywhoo! After the concert me, JessJess, and Scotty went back to his house and I slept over.
Then Sunday we went to Easter at my house. :[
'NOUGH SAID!
Monday me and Scotty and JohnForce went to the movies and we saw Meet the Robinsons. THAT WAS A CUTE MOVIE. and smarty pants little JohnForce predicted the whole movie. haha he was like.. this this and this will happen. and it did! haha

yeah, well I have not talked to Nate for around 4 days now. To anyone else that would not seem like all that long but I am going crazy for sure. :[ I can't hold myself together without that boy.

Current Mood: missing you is the worst.
Current Music: Four Letter Lie

alrighty!haha this weekend has overall been quite pleasing.
Wednesday Nate came over and we snuggled inside and watched movies like, SLC Punk!, cause it was raining. I loved it.
Then Thursday my mommy cut my hair all cute and then I went to the mall for a little and saw amazing people. ( Scotty, JohnForce, Jess Wade, Mark, Lauren Parks, Giselle, Nate...etc). Then me, Scotty, Jess, and Nate went to the chinese place and ate. After dat me and Scotty slept at Jess's place. BOY WAS THAT INTERESTING. ha
Friday me and Scotty went back to my house because I thought I had to babysit. Me, Scotty, and Nate hung out all night. Then my mom decided not to go out... so we all sat at home anyway! I love my men. mhm.
Today me and mah nigguh biffle woke up and got ready. We are now at his house waiting to go to the Taking Back Sunday and Underoath show with JessJess. This should be pretty amazing. :]

mhmh!

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Underoath

So, here's an update of each day since I last wrote:

Wednesday- talking to the half day boys turned out to be really fun. I ended up skipping more classes then I should have and basically missed the whole day. I had some interesting conversations with some of those kids. haha
Thursday- well, thursday was just so precious, as were those little kids. They were so nice and listened pretty well. We read to the first, second, third, and fourth graders and I had a blast. I'd definately like to go do more things like that because I felt really good after doing it. :]
Friday-( I had to babysit this night) friday I slept in some and then got up and got in the shower. I got all ready, packed up my clothes and cleaned up my crib. After my sister got home my mommy picked up the two of us and took us to her house. I sat around for a little while and then my mommy and her boyfriend finally left to go out to where his band was playing. Then shortly after that Nate came over. We had quite an amazing night as we always do. I cannot begin to describe how much I love that boy. NOPE! words cannot describe it.
Saturday- ( I had to babysit this night, too) Again I woke up and got ready and waited for Scotty, JessJess, and Nate to come over. Well, I ended up feeling pretty sick by halfway through the night so I was tied down to the couch. I really had a nice time seeing JessJess, though. I havent really hung out with her in a good amount of time. So, we were all laying around watching "When A Stranger Calls" and I saw that it was already 1:30 in the morning. Nate was about to miss his bus home so I called my mommy and begged her to let Nate stay over. She agreed as long everyone was tucked in by the time her and her boyfriend got home because she wasnt telling him that Nate was spending the night. haha Nate was supposed to be gone at 5:30 for work but he didnt get up when his alarm went off. I ended up getting woken up by my mommy at 9 in the morning and she told me to sneak into the room Nate slept in and wake him up but make sure he stayed in the room silent until she could get her boyfriend out of the house and then Nate had to go. haha! it was like fuckin James Bond. it was quite exciting though I must say. :]]]
Sunday- I spent the rest of the day with Scotty and JessJess. Then Scotty slept over again. It was pretty good getting some time with him.
That pretty much leads me up to today. I'm really happy that I'm staying at my mommy's because its almost like a vacation. I'm in a generally good mood considering having to deal with everyone's shit and their attitudes and stupid opinions on things. I just keep hearing more and more stuff. AND my stomach has been hurting me real bad for the past few days whenever I eat anything and my throat feels like I'm swallowing razorblades. It is not a fun feeling.
On the plus side, I only have to go to school tomorrow and then my spring break starts because I'm not going to school Wednesday. :]
I already have my whole spring break planned out. haha I'm such a freak.
Here are the notes thus far:
Wednesday- spend the day at home with mah baby.
Thurday- out. (probably to the mall) with everyone and then sleeping out somewhere after.
Friday- hopefully going to the movies with scotty in the AM and then us two comming back here to babysit. Then we will sleep here.
Saturday- FUCKING UNDEROATH/TAKING BACK SUNDAY/ARMOR FOR SLEEP CONCERT/JESSJESS' BIRTHDAY. haha and Im so excited! Then we are sleeping over Scotty's.
Sunday- Easter! me and Scotty will go back to my grandmom's to spend Easter with the entire family. We will eat and get fat and then Scotty will probably spend the night.
Monday- No school and the last day of spring break. I probably won't go out and do anything. Maybe if its nice I'll walk into town and go to the park. :]

Oh! i just remembered. supposedly Jess Wade told me shes doing something at her crib. haha where am i fitting that in?!

I shall just have to see!

Current Mood: sore throat!
Current Music: The Scene Aesthetic

Today's weather was really beautiful.
It was so warm but breezy still.
Hace fresco y hace buen tiempo! haha
Anyway, I got up and was feelin pretty good after my talk with Nate last night and such. I showered and got dressed. Then decided to slice my pants into long shorts at the last minute because of how warm it was. NICE!
First period through pretty much the whole school day was quite chill. I breezed through it actually. Things were going pretty good until around 4:30.
I came in from laying outside like I always do when the weather permits; and I got into a fight with my sister about her using my hairbrush and me using OUR phone charger. Well, she got pissed at me and went into the bathroom and cut the charger cord into pieces. I FUCKING FLIPPED. So, now my phone is dead and will remain that way until Friday when I can go to my mom's and get my other charger. BUMMER!
Then Nate called me and we got into a little huff about some old stuff that happened a month ago and some bitch decided to bring back up again. AND LIE ABOUT ON TOP OF THAT.
So, needless to say I got mad heated. I'm not a liar and I have never lied to Nate and I never would. I love him with all of my heart and even more then that and I never want to lose him. Its a damn shame that people have to be so selfish as to go and bring up past problems and lie about them to make them seem so much worse. I talked it through with Nate like we always do and then I came on the computer and took care of the problem, hopefully.
Anyway,
Tomorrow I have to go and talk to a bunch of the scumbag half day pricks in the other vocational buildings around my school. I get to go and present to them a powerpoint on SMOKING AND TOBACCO!. haha tomorrow is KICK BUTTS DAY so I get to miss first and last period to do shit for REBEL.
Then Thursday I'm missing all of school to go on a field trip for REBEL. I am going to read to the K-2nd graders at Mullica School. Thats pretty cool though cause it should be somewhat fun.
Then, I'M OFF FRIDAY! haha I just found that out today and i was excited. YAY FOR IN SERVICE DAY. even though none of my friends from Oakcrest have off, which sucks, at least I don't have to go to school.
the weekend should be fun, even though I have to stay home. I'm hoping to spend it with the best men in my life. :]

Lately, I have been listening to really rediculous music that just makes me dance: Ashlee Simpson, Avril Lavigne, Good Charlotte, Fall Out Boy, etc. haha Definately not stuff I usually listen to but when you are dancing around and laughing with friends its the best music to listen to.

So, on top of that stuff I have a bajillion other things on my mind. But it's the usual stuff I guess so I'm learning to just deal with it.. maybe.
I have to finish my spanish weather project( draw/ color different props for different weather, finish writing my weather forcast speech, get everything collected and finished and stuck in my bag to hand in tomorrow.)
I also have to make a little poster jobby piece for the "Kick Butts Day" graffitti wall in my school. (Being in REBEL already volunteers me to make a picture to put up.)
I also have to memorize the part in the 'secondhand smoke' books that I have to read to the children on Thursday. haha don't want to be corrected by a 6 year old. that would just ruin my day, but I know it'll happen at least once.
Haha and theres even more stuff I have to do before I go to bed that isn't school-oriented ( exercise, put away clothes, pick out clothes for tomorrow, clean up some of my room, brush my teeth, wash my face, put on PJ's!) haha hmmm and maybe some more stuff too?!
All I know is that I hope it stays warm through the weekend, although I'm pretty sure it's not going to.

Current Mood: busy
Current Music: ashlee simpson. ahaha

-- next weekend MUST be better.
friday night was the best night out of the weekend. i got to see everyone. even though i was a grouch.

Another monday, so its the start of a new week.
For some reason, Im quite cheery today. That is probably because I had a pretty alright weekend all in all. Minus a little huff and puff me and nate got into over the phone friday night.
BUT! I saw sooo many cute fuckerz friday night it doesnt even matter.
Friday: I went to school and just got through the day. then my grandmom took me and scotty to the mall where we met up with johnforce, LP, giselle, jess wade, and mark. Then we saw Jeremy and he joined us! I also ended up running into my andwoo and ryan and aaron. so that was quite wonderful. i miss those boys like an unbelieveable amount.
anywhooo. after the night at the mall me and scotty peaced and ran to borders in the rain. i got all wet and by the time we got there i realized i had ripped open the back of my ankles AGAIN. i was running around borders barefoot asking ladies for bandaids. haha mad cute. Me, scotty, jesswade, and marky all chilled till almost 11 at borders and then jess drove us home.
Me and scotty drank mad redlines and stuff at the mall so we were quite hyper. Scotty's little sister and us black girl danced into the wee hours of the morning. haha it was so fun
.... so when i woke up i found i had lost another pound. 94! and my thighs were killing me!
Saturday: I woke up at like 12:30 and then got a shower and ate some breakfast with scottyboo. Then my mom just shows up at scottys drunk already to pick me up. THAT WAS NOT A FUN RIDE HOME. so the first thing i did when i got home was called up nate. he come over not long after that. we had an amazing night like we always do when we are together. :] mhm mhm! he stayed until 1:30 or so in the morning and then he finally left.
and i hit the sack only 10 minutes after that!
Sunday: I pretty much laid around my moms all day and watched movies. I WATCHED THE DEVILS REJECTS AGAIN THOUGH. i hadnt seen that movie in a while and i forgot how much i loved it.
"TOOTIE FUCKIN FROOTIE" thats whats up haha
anywayy. yeah, onto today.
today wasnt too bad actually. maybe because i just sang and danced my way through it. haha i turned on my music and danced onto the bus and into oakcrest and all through talking to everyone then out the door onto my bus and to my school. and i danced and sang through homeroom and in the hallways. haha i let the music soothe my soul today. that, and talking things over with some of the girls that i love. and i hope everything is good with now.
maybe ill let my music be my rescue in school all day from now on.

-- i cant wait until friday.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Rancid

I have off weeks. EVERY WEEK.
I don't write in this thing during the week really, because I do the exact same thing everyday. and I feel the exact same way everyday: I wish the day would just end so I can wake up the next day and just be one day closer to the weekend.
Last week, I bet you can guess, pretty much just sucked like always. haha
I don't mean to sound pessimistic and complaintive.. but if you dont like what I have to say, then just dont read this. This is my place to vent. :]
Well, this past weekend was very eventful yet uneventful all at the same time. I thought it was a pretty good weekend all in all.
I didn't get to go out all weekend because I had to babysit, so that sucked. But on the upside, I got to spend all Friday with my bestfriend and all Saturday with my bestfriend AND my boyfriend. So, I can't really complain about that!

So far this week has been turning out just like every other week for the past few months.
SUCKING. It's Nate's birthday today and I'm not even going to see him until the weekend. So Im rather upset about that. And so, yet again, I'm probably going to have to cram everything I want to do this weekend into one day. I want to spend a day ALONE with my boyfriend... but I havent seen my "friends" since like two weekends ago. I HAVE TO SEE THEM THIS WEEKEND. I have to come up with some sort of plan.
Right now, I'm putting my artistic creativeness to good use. heh

Oh yeah, I got blood taken this morning. That was the highlight of my day.

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Boys Night Out